PiggiE's Way Of Life

冬至

2009-12-22T21:22:00.003+08:00

今天是冬至，一个象征着团圆的日子。。
往年的冬至，我妈都会一早把我们几姐妹都叫醒来帮忙她搓汤圆。。
以前的我，认为这是一件很麻烦的事。。
所以我从来没有真正的向我妈学过汤圆是怎么样煮的。。
而当时的我也理所当然地认为我妈会一直这样煮汤圆给我们吃。。
直到去年，我妈在冬至的前一天离开了我们。。
当时的她，已经陷入昏迷状态，所以她并没有留下任何的遗言。。
去年的冬至，我是在殡仪馆里面望着我妈的遗体过的。。
今年的冬至，家里不再有人搓汤圆，煮汤圆。。
少了妈妈的冬至，一点也没有团圆的感觉。。
所以今年的冬至我们只是象征性地去了外婆的家吃汤圆。。
外婆的汤圆和妈妈的汤圆，味道截然不同。。
我才发现，妈妈的汤圆，真的比较好吃。。
在外婆家，我看到了爸爸落寞的神情。。
我才后悔，为什么以前不跟我妈好好地学煮汤圆。。
现在，一切都太迟了。。

~树欲静而风不止，子欲养而亲不在~

为什么？

2009-12-14T01:04:00.003+08:00

为什么你们总爱问我为什么？
有些事，我答不出来。。
有些事，我不想答。。
所以我选择了逃避与沉默。。
逃避，是为了保护你们。。
沉默，是为了保护我。。
我不想面对。。
更害怕面对。。
一句冲口而出的话。。
伤害了你。。
也伤害了我。。
我真的真的不想再伤害任何人了。。
也不想伤害我自己。。
无形的压力压着胸口的感觉并不好受。。
要知道。。
当你在伤害一个人的时候，你也是在伤害你自己。。
我累了。。
也倦了。。
我想做回我自己。。
但。。
我找不回自己。。

Exam..!!

2009-10-29T14:34:00.002+08:00

Finals is just around da corner..
Feel so stress.. N so restless.. i'm afraid i might fail some paper.. dun really understand wat da lecturer is teaching also.. carry marks is not high too.. haiz.. now wat can i do is juz study harder n hope that i'll pass my paper.. i duwan to retake o repair any paper..
Cant really study now.. headache.. sometimes see my roommate keep study at room juz make me feel more pressure.. this make me cant study at room.. i need to find a place to cool my mind down so that i'll become insane becoz of exam..
Just wish me good luck for my exam..! Gambatte~

绝情

2009-10-06T10:25:00.002+08:00

几天前，有一个朋友对我说：“你好绝情！”
我无言以对..
可能我的潜意识里也认同了这句话吧！
无可否认，面对爱情，我是绝情的..
因为我认为，爱情是靠感觉的，没感觉就是没感觉。既然如此，就不要浪费大家的时间，长痛不如短痛..
至于我那个朋友，是说我对友情太绝情..我会吗？可能吧！不止一次，也不止一个朋友说过他们感觉不到我的关心..可能我就是那种不会关心人的人吧！

思念

2009-09-09T00:42:00.001+08:00

今夜的我，情绪低落...
睡眠一再地受到干扰...
加上考试的压力，活动的忙碌，让我几乎陷入崩溃的边缘...
朋友间一句无心的玩笑话，勾起了我深藏在内心深处最痛的回忆...
眼看着课本...
心在思念着在远方的您...
不知您过得还好吗...？
这是一个没有答案的问题...

读书=没心情

2009-08-18T17:24:00.000+08:00

好久好久没写部落格了...
原因之一～懒惰...
原因之二～文采不好...
原因之三～不知道要写些什么... >.<

大学放假一星期，已经过了四天，每天无所事事的，都不知道要做什么，加上生病，头痛的感觉让我更懒懒的不想动，只想发呆...
读书=没心情...
每次拿出书来就想睡觉，怎么办？？下星期就要考期中考了...

下大雨了,又是一个睡觉的天气...
不能再这样下去了啦！！再过两天就要去饥饿三十营了...再不读书就没时间了...
还是加油吧..！！

妈，生日快乐。。

2009-01-03T22:29:00.000+08:00

今天是我妈五十岁的生日，也是她永远不能再过的生日。。希望她在另外一个世界能听到我的祝福。。妈，生日快乐。。我们永远怀念您。。

~Yuhoooo~

2008-11-26T06:36:00.000+08:00

hi hi.. so long nvr drop by to write smthg le.. kinda busy for my sem 1 final year examination.. n yeah..!! ytd was da last paper ad.. haha.. so start from today is my sem break for around one month le.. now is 6am in da morning.. i'm busy packing my from ytd de 10pm til juz now 4am plus plus.. nvr sleep at all.. but kinda excited now.. wil be taking bus back to mlk at 9.30am.. hehe.. first thing i'll do when i'm in da bus is sleep.. ZZzzzz.. haha.. really very sleepy le.. my eyes is quite hard to open fully now.. hee.. but is worth it coz finally can go back mlk ad.. i miss satay celup.. n those fast food especially mcD.. now think get also hungry le.. but going to leave soon.. stil hvn carry my two big boxes of things to the pantry room.. definately not me wil take it.. since i'm so lam pong rite..?? haha.. thanks for those frens who help me carry my things la.. thanks guys.. ^-^

~pAniC~

2008-10-26T22:38:00.000+08:00

i'm very panic now.. going to do add drop for my next sem course.. actually i'm relaxing all da way.. but da fellow sitting beside me now is keep on scare me.. make me feel more n more nervous.. feel like whacking him man.. haih.. i really panic lo.. my hands all cold like hell.. hush.. trying to cool my mind now.. wish me best of luck ba.. hope i can successfully add all my course up la.. good luck for those who are doing add drop now.. gambatte ba.. may god bless we all.. till then.. ta~

~i'm bAck~

2008-08-23T21:38:00.000+08:00

after one week break in malacca,i'm back to uum again.. feels like not enough time to spend in mlk lo.. here is da time i had spent in mlk.....

first day ~ i reached mlk about 7am.. then walked back home with my two frens who is come back with me de.. after tat we go eat "dim sum" together.. then i go help my dad in da canteen.. ate a lot of ice-cream n junk food there.. =p after tat go become driver.. drive my sisters back from sch n go eat cendol at beside my ex-sch.. at nite i went to sing karaoke an Go-Go ktv box.. hehe..

second day ~ dun really remember wat i did for tat day.. juz remember tat i had put my bestie de aeroplane o.. sorry to her.. hehe.. gomenasai ya.. ^-^

third day ~ went to cut my hair.. thinking of let it grow longer de.. but duwan la.. lazy wanna tie up my hair everyday o.. so stil cut short it again lo..

forth day ~ went for sushi king with my bestie.. hehe.. sooooo long nvr eat sushi ad.. yummy~~

fifth day ~ started my work today.. kinda free coz not much customers.. went to my bestie de house after my work.. n i accidentally fall asleep there.. haha.. til da next time morning i go back tat time my family juz realise tat i stay overnight there.. sad case..

sixth day ~ busy working.. today got 86 boxes de stock come in.. busy checking n arranging.. then at nite go amote eat ais.. cappuccino flavour de.. luckily i nvr stomachache eh.. haha.. cant really stand for coffein de..

seventh day ~ working noon shift today.. so went to temple in da morning.. bought a bracelet for myself.. then accompany my mom got eat vegetarian food lo.. very colourful de bihun goreng.. got purple colour de cabbage samo le.. but i ate little bit only.. dun like to eat vege at all..

eighth day ~ working for da last day.. today got 100 boxes stock come in.. really tired o.. climb up climb down to put all da stocks.. nearly fall down from da stairs samo.. haha.. clumsy le.. too long nvr do this kind of stuff ad.. then at nite busy packing my stuff lo.. pack til nearly 3am le.. too many things to bring up ad.. but most of tat also foods lo.. scare later puasa wil die of hunger there ma.. haha..

nineth day ~ going back to uum lo.. tata malacca..

p/s: see i done so many things in da holidays but nvr study get also.. da day after tmr is my mid sem exam ad.. i also dunno how to die lo.. haih.. wish me best of lucks la.. not gonna sleep much ad la.. gambatte to me n everyone who is going to take exam soon.. go! go! jia you!!

TiReD~~~

2008-08-08T17:13:00.000+08:00

this fews day really tired.. tones of assignments, homework, meetings.. juz finish a math test this morning.. thank god.. not really difficult yet.. coz i'm not study much last nite.. slept quite early also.. too tired ad.. or should i said exhausted?? haih.. juz now kena force to go "cat" da wall in my block de pantry room samo.. now i know tat tall is not a good things ad.. coz all da upper wall is i "cat" wan lo.. coz they said i'm tall enough.. actually my roommate is taller than me 1cm.. bt she went out for her assignment meeting ad.. so i'm da one gonna do lo.. n got one prob is da chair is not very stable also.. then my ketua paras put 2 sofa up there so tat i can reach da highest part.. so i was like standing on a "jongkang-jongket" juz now.. gonna balance myself while "cat-ing" da wall lo.. at last more than half of da wall is completed by me.. haha.. be proud man.. i at home also nvr do this kinda stuff le.. but they said i did til very nice wor.. nice meh?? i dunno.. i juz noe i'm very tired only.. later at nite got bbq nite samo.. dun feel like going down.. this wan can skip.. although i ad paid liao.. da most jia lat wan is tmr morning ar.. got a program integrasi for my ko-k.. n wat i need to do is "merentas desa".. means i have to run da whole uum again.. now think get aso tired ad.. why i need to do all this wor???? kinda pek chek sometimes.. n now i'm finding my assignment info.. i sat here for 3 hours plus ad.. n get ntg.. stupid rite..?? actually i find get smthg in my uni de library ad.. n inside da com written available means da books is inside da library n i can borrow it.. bt i run da whole library for 2 hours also cannot find get da stupid books.. really s---- man.. hush..

sorry people.. if u feel uncomfortable to read my blog.. juz stop reading it okie.. coz i'm gonna burst ad.. i dun like to keep feeling in my heart.. is very suffer for me.. dunno why other ppl can did tat?? bt i cant.. mayb i should learn it now.. haih.. nobody tat i can really talk with now.. nobody understand my feelings.. sorry to say tat.. mayb i'm too lazy to tel out also.. feel very frustrated now.. sometimes really feel like crying.. juz a feeling.. bt i wont did tat.. u guys should know i wont cry.. i wil n muz be tough.. da road is stil long.. n this is juz da starting.. bt i'm gonna give up now.. juz for today.. i'll keep this promise to myself.. gonna chaoz ad.. headache..

~mY biRthDay PaRty iN aDvaNce~

2008-07-26T17:51:00.000+08:00

first of all, i wanna thanks all my fren whose preparing da surprise party for me.. i'm really happy.. i had nvr celebrate my birthday with a birthday cake along da 7 years in my sch life.. very surprise.. they r successfully make me feel so touched but my tears stil nvr flows down lo.. hehe.. it is so difficult to see my tears de u know.. okie.. let's talk back da surprise tat i get..

hmmm.. they did this surprise party on da same day tat i'm participated da project extreme brainstorming lo.. as u all noe, i'm exhausted coz of da morning de event.. n da whole afternoon i was watching movie in my fren's room.. so i'm really tired lo.. then i decided to sleep after my dinner.. n i really did it lo.. i went to my bed at 8pm n fall asleep in 5 minutes.. haha.. geng le.. thats my special kung fu u noe.. while i'm playing chinese chess with my handsome mr.zhou,somebody woke me up.. then i very very bosong de open my eyes lo.. my neighbours said juz now they got announce tat every dpp proton members muz go gather at canteen immediately wor.. then they nvr said da reason samo.. i also blur blur de go down lo.. when i reach canteen tat time juz saw my fren all sitting at da table there n talking lo.. then i asked them not all proton de members kena come down meh..?? they said no lo.. my neighbour cheat me only de.. then i started very bosong ad lo.. coz i'm very tired ad ma then they chaet me samo.. i dun like ppl cheat me de lo.. then my fren all keep talking nonsense only wor.. really like ntg to do n come down chit chat only.. so i ma very bosong said wanna go back lo.. bt da apple said stay a while la.. long time didn't chat ad ma.. then i stay there with my dark face lo.. but everyone is like talking to thenselves only lo.. i'm da only one blur blur there.. but suddenly......

"happy birthday to u......" a birthday cake come out from my behind wor.. so surprise le.. coz stil got around one week juz is my birthday ma.. didn't expect tat they wil help me celebrate de lo.. so touched.. hehe.. then they all sing multi language de birthday song for me.. so happy.. hehe.. after tat i make wishes.. here my wishes goes.. my first wish~i hope tat my mom can faster recover so tat my dad wont be so xin ku.. secondly, i hope tat my family n all my fren here n my fren in mlk wil be bless n healthy always.. n my third wish i'll keep it for myself lo.. tat is p&c la.. haha.. after making wishes, one of my fren de hand very gatal n go press da candle down down n ask me bite it up.. eeek.. last time i used to see ppl play tat but this is da first time i kena lo.. haha.. n definately my face wil kena cream lo.. coz dunno who push my face from behind wor.. of course i wont let my fren de face become so clean la since my face also dirty ad.. so each of them wil kena from my "lovely cream fingers" lo.. haha.. i'm so evil rite...

anyway,i'm here to thanks all my fren tat help me celebrate my birthday party in advance.. hehe.. thanks to my lovely apple ywl,my roommate sek chen,peggy,et,swee yean,li ting,li sin,meng hui,guo sheng,ricky,kk,zhen yuan,bryan n max.. thanks a lot ya all my frens~~ (,")(",)

~wOmAn'S PoWeR~

2008-07-26T17:01:00.000+08:00

i'm very tired now.. coz ytd i was participant in a project in our uni.. which is called "PROJECT EXTREME BRAINSTORMING".. actually this game is compulsory for all da sem 1 students lo.. so i went to join lo.. n becoz of this event we all woke up at 6am.. coz they said muz gather at 7am ma.. but at last most of da ppl is late for tat.. so da open ceremony was started at 8.15am.. after da long long spech from those soniors n our lovely pn.pengetua.. at last our game start at 9am.. haih.. waste my time again lo.. actually tat day i'm not feel like playing de lo.. coz i'm not feeling very well ad ma.. having sore throat n my leg de musle is so pain.. my fren keep asking me to go out when they was asking who is not feeling well de plz stand up n go out.. but i'm refused to do so coz i think i can tahan de lo.. dun wish to make my team less one ppl ma.. is called teamwork okie.. haha..

when da game is starting,all da ketua is asked to go inside da gallery to find da task paper lo.. but our ketua cant find get da paper le.. so we became da almost last group tat go out from our gallery,which is da first station lo.. fortunately,our team members all are giving da full commitment with each othes.. although one of our team member cant run fast becoz of some personal reason.. but we r stil not left her behind.. i'm giving her many moral support by shouting her name n ask her jia you lo.. haha.. tats da main reason my voice become very "sexy" today.. haha.. n we almost run da whole uni for ytd event le.. is sooo tiring after tat.. n now i stil can feel my whole body de muscles is shouting they r very pain now.. i cant even squard down ad.. sob sob.. but i stil believe tat we can achieve wat we wan if we are really work hard for it.. n our result had prove it..!! we get no.2 out of 29 groups le.. we r so surprise for tat.. coz we tot we wil get da last few groups le.. haha.. sooo happy.. n our group member is all gals lo.. no guys at all.. so tats called "WOMEN POWER".. haha.. there is ntg we cant do without guys de..

~hApPy~

2008-07-23T14:09:00.000+08:00

hello everyone.. i'm back again.. hehe.. da day b4 ytd is da most happy time tat i had ever pass though during a month here.. coz my roommate de family bring her out to Alor Star lo.. too bad i got class so cannot follow her la.. (this is not a happy thing lo) but she bring back KFC for me to eat le.. (of course i have to pay la) haha.. soooo happy u know.. coz i almost one month nvr eat get kfc ad lo.. at around here is no fast food wan.. so weird rite..?? last time eat fast food eat til very sien.. now wanna eat tat time pula dun have lo.. i also dunno why they duwan to make a mc.d o kfc o pizza hut here lo.. but nvm.. at last i stil can eat get lo.. haha.. definately my roommate is not only pack for me la.. our fren here also got lo.. so tat day we almost 10ppl gather at da cafeteria here to eat kfc together lo..stil remember tat day juz we one table de ppl eat kfc only.. other ppl juz can look at us.. hahaha.. sounds very bad rite..?? haha.. thats juz da beginning le.. after tat we stil got durian to eat o.. luckily we nvr kena scold by anyone coz of da smell of durian.. but stil got a few of my frens dun eat durian de.. i also dunno why de lo.. da taste is sooo good le.. haha.. n now inside my room stil got mango la.. mangosteen la.. green apple la.. rambutan la.. jambu air la.. so many different kind of fruits le.. haha.. make my room looks like a farm ad lo.. i'm so lucky tat i have a good roommate.. haha.. so xing fu le.. really happy~~

~mEdicaL cHecK-Up~

2008-07-18T15:24:00.000+08:00

ello.. i'm back again.. today i went for a medical check-up at PKU (Pusat Kesihatan Universiti) o.. it is compulsory for all da sem 1 students de lo.. because of this i have to get up at 7.30am to go there because da medical check-up is start at 8am n da place is very far from my hostel lo.. actually me n my fren is thinking to walk there de.. but surprisingly there is a PKU de van came n fetch us go de wor.. but stil got some of my fren walked go there coz they also dunno got van wil fetch us go de.. haha.. so kelian them o.. =p okie.. back to my topic.. after i had done this medical check-up,i had found out 2 things:-

i had grow taller compared to last time.. haha.. but is juz taller for 1cm only la.. better than nvr tall get rite?? hehe.. for u all de info, last time my height was 165cm n now it become 166cm ad.. so happy to hear tat.. >.<
i really got slim down ad after i came here to study.. coz da day b4 i came here my weight was 48kg de.. but today.. dang dang dang dang.. it become 45kg ad.. haha.. who said come to uni n study wil become fatter de ar?? see.. i'm slim down ad lo.. so happy o.. ^-^

okie la.. juz drop by to write smthg here only.. coz i'm tooooo bored ad lo.. n now i'm going back to my lovely bed to sleep liao lo.. for those who r studying today,gambatte ya.. i'll help u all to sleep more de.. haha.. sounds evil?? yes.. i'm evil.. hehe.. k la.. gonna chaoz ad.. see ya.. ta~

2008-07-17T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone.. i'm back.. this few days i'm quite busy.. coz i ad started to go for kuliah ad lo.. feel kinda sesat sometimes.. coz da uni is so big n i always go to da wrong way because i'm a person tat dun have sense of direction de lo.. so sad rite.. n i think i got thin a bit ad lo.. coz i everyday have to walk for at least 15minutes to reach da dewan kuliah le.. of course here got bus service la.. but i lazy wanna wait ma.. so juz walk there lo.. can diet also.. hehe..

Well,as u guys know.. UUM is da only uni tat can play go-kart here.. n i as a UUM student,sure la wont let go this kind of chance.. so i went to played it.. unfortunately, i get number 1 (counted from behind).. so sad.. n start from tat day,all my fren here is calling me "dou fu" (beancurd) coz they said i'm lembik like it.. kek sim lo..

Other than tat,i also went out to jitra with my fren.. haha.. now think back also funny.. one group of ppl nvr go there b4 de.. luckily we can safely come back here lo.. hehe.. da main purpose we went there is to play bowling n watch movie.. n i choosed to play bowling.. so sad to say again.. i stil get number 1st tat counted from behind for da first game.. tat muz be a curse from my fren lo.. so bad de him.. want me to accompany him to be da loser.. but luckily i get number 3rd for da second game.. so proud.. haha.. then they cant cal me "dou fu" anymore.. but as da result of playing bowling,my right hand is hurt.. i also dunno why de lo.. mayb my skill of palying is wrong o wat la.. n til now my hand stil got a bit pain.. my fren also said i'm so "lam pong".. this wan i cannot deny ad lo..

i think this is enough for today ad la.. is kinda late now.. n da com lab is closing soon.. so i have to leave ad lo.. see ya in da next post.. take care everyone.. ta~ ^-^

2008-07-12T20:19:00.000+08:00

Konichiwa.. since this is my first entry.. juz wanna said dozoyoroshiku (i dunno da spelling correct o not! =p) hehe.. i also dunno why i'll become a blogger.. coz last time i was laughing at my fren n said they are wasting time on blog.. but now.. hehe.. mayb i juz feel very sien here.. well.. for those who still dunno where am i de.. juz 2 tel u all tat.. i'm in University Utara Malaysia.. so called UUM la.. it is very far from my hometown.. one is at north n one is at south.. i came here by bus with one of my fren only.. both of us also mcc n have no idea of how to go in to da uni coz our bus stopped us at changlun de bus station.. fortunately,we meet a good senior n she ask us to go in by taxi.. then,we finally safely reach here by taxi.. but is kinda expensive lo.. two person for 16bucks le.. but wat to do.. we stil have to come in wat.. (but next time we wont so stupid kena cheat ad..) got senior said we can come by bus n it only cost us 1.50bucks only.. ar..!! we had rugi 14.50bucks ad.. suak!! its over ad.. dun think so much lo.. tats wat i always said..

For da first week in UUM,is so called orientation week.. some ppl said "orientation=torture".. last time i dun believe in it.. but now i'm agree.. know why?? it is simply becoz for da whole orientation week i had only slept for 2 hours everyday.. Really become panda ad lo..

K la.. i'm gonna chaoz ad.. for those who r reading my blogs,thanks for supporting me n see me luo so here lo.. hehe.. i'll be back soon o.. see ya.. ta~